yeah man i finally removed the irritating tagboard.
anws went clubbing ytd. the last time i went was almost 6 months back, so the itch was getting to me a bit. it felt bad, really bad. i felt like shit after that, for obvious reasons. the sheer superficiality of it all was getting to me again. was it because people whom i knew were down dere looking at me? i dont know. but surely some of them would be quite surprised to see me acting the way i did. i din noe wad came over me also, but after the whole thing, it really did not feel good. i dunno. i will still go clubbing, but no more replay of what happened last night. maybe this is what intoxication can do to your judgement. maybe its because of the way my life is now. maybe its a combination of both. its at times like these when i really want to meet the someone who can make me settle down and stop all these nonsense. however, that is virtually impossible until at least a year more.often, i wonder in what form she would turn out to be, cuz there is really no one in mind.
anws moving on, my last major hurdle is more or less over. i dunno where are all my command skills and confidence. its a bad performance by my own standards, not to mention others benchmark. this means one thing, its coming to an end soon. all the stifling, shit taking, will soon stop. either that, or take up a new form. but definitely it will not feel as fucked up, because im alr mentally prepared. alright, i shall stop all the bitching, last week was enough. i still cant believe i let the stress get to me and offloaded all the shit to so many people. its so not me, but i guess wads done is done. lets move on. there is light at the end of the tunnel =)

anws koping a quote from renfu:
if you live to a hundred, i wanna live to a hundred minus one day, so i dun ever have to live without you.
-winnie the pooh-
awwww damn sweet rite. but its damn bloody selfish. bwahaha im jus kidding.